Intern blues.

Here is a post from a while ago:

Today is the beginning of my 6^th week at my internship and it’s started off pretty badly. I’m interning at the Legal Aid Society of Cleveland and I thought it would be a great place to intern because I am thinking about law school and wanted to get a little insight into law in the non-profit sector. Of course, as a third year undergrad with no prior knowledge of law, the only things that I could do for my internship were distinctly non-law related, alas I found a way in which to satisfy improving my current skill set as well as gaining knowledge in a field that I knew very little about.

As the Development and Communications intern I write grant proposals and letters of inquiry, help maintain the donor database, and write success stories of the interesting cases that get closed by the Legal Aid attorneys. It is important work, of course, and it is right up my alley, as an ex-avid writer and Anthropology student, doing tons of writing and tedious work in databases is my forte. In return for my work, I get to attend the events that the Summer Associates attend: meet and greets with local judges and influential attorneys, meetings with big law firms in Cleveland, court hearings and seminars.

Today was supposed to be the first of these law education happenings; we were going to the Court of Appeals to hear oral arguments and I was super excited for it. In the mock trials that I’d seen I’d only ever seen regular court cases, never appeals and I’d also never been in a real court before—double score! I made sure I was up early, I wore some of my new business digs and had breakfast, I was preparing for success and super excited to get to experience court for the first time. But of course, nothing can go as planned and in typical Monday fashion I missed my train.

Really, my train was early and I missed it by mere minutes and ended up having to wait for the next train that effectively caused me to be too late to go. Not only did I not get to go to court, I was at a loss for work, we were supposed to be at the Court House from 9AM-12PM, essentially leaving me with 3 hours to kill before I was actually supposed to start working.

Of course I was bummed, I really wanted to go to court and I also didn’t want to be stuck in the office with nothing to do for 3 hours. But so goes life, hopefully the next time I won’t underestimate the time and will actually be able to go. Le sigh.

Back in the Springs

Yesterday, well I guess 11 hours ago, I got back to the Springs and sort of started moving into my house. I’m excited about the house, the backyard is magical at night, my room is delightfully spacious and things are relatively clean. Everything but the bathrooms, that is. Which, for anyone who knows me is a big deal, there is nothing in the world that makes me feel more uncomfortable/gross than a dirty bathroom (euck!). So guess what I’m doing today?!

I’m really excited to get out tomorrow and see who’s in town and see everyone’s houses. I am also anxious to get all of my things in the house so that I can finally feel at home. The luxuries of having all of my things at my disposal is necessary at this point, and I’m hoping to get most of my stuff in the house today. Then I can sun bathe and just generally do nothing for the rest of the day.

I don’t think that it has fully hit me that school is just around the corner. But oh well, it will eventually.

A dopo!

Back from the dead.

Seven seasons of Star Trek: Voyager, one season of Orange is the New Black, and an internship later I am finishing out my summer with a pretty good feeling. Í have been writing, but unfortunately my writings haven’t been making it here so I will be posting them periodically as they aren’t particularly time sensitive.

It’s a little strange though because there are only a few days left until I am back in the Springs, and though I’m excited for the start of a new year, I am also kind of sad that I’m leaving home. It’ll be the last time I’ll be here for a while, and when I do come back it will be just for a visit before the big move (!!!). I’ve had some amazing nights with my best friends, in Chautauqua, in bars, on rooftops and in VIP sections. There have been some very cute (and not so cute) boys this summer, some Stage 5 Clingers, and some interesting moments with guy friends. I’ve had dates and hook ups and made mistakes, but there is still more that I wish I could do.

I have a few days to enjoy being home and I’m squeezing a lot of living into this time. Between dates, spending time with family, packing, friends from out of town, and fitting in some last hurrah’s with my best girl friends I am going to be stretching out these last few days as much as I can.

There will be much more to come about school, post-grad, and some new developments in my “life plan” and definitely more about my impending move to New York—which might result in a change of blog name who knows.

But for now,

A dopo!

Here comes the anxiety…

I start my internship on Tuesday. This simple fact is freaking me out.

I was doing well before, when I was only dealing with the prospect, the near yet still far away future, that I would be spending my entire summer under a pile of work that I am only half certain that I can handle. Now, it is no longer a prospect, it is happening. On Tuesday.

I know that in theory I can do the work, but I have no idea what they are actually expecting of me and what actual work I will be doing. I also have no idea if the organization is something that I will actually want to be apart of after it is all said and done. Slowly but surely my faith and happiness with public service organizations is going down the toilette.

Not only will I be doing an internship I’m only half sure about, I will be starting my thesis work which, I’m not sure that I’m completely prepared for. It’s going to put me well outside my comfort zone. There are very few things that really give me anxiety, and a large part of my project is doing just that: talking with people whom I do not know in a non-social context.

I think this summer will be a large learning experience because I’m going to be forced to do a lot of things I’m not sure about. I had that a bit last summer and everything turned out really well, so I know that I shouldn’t be so anxious about it. But it’s a lot of work, a lot of work that I want and need to do well. If I want to get fellowships at law firms or at other legal organizations I will need to do well at Legal Aid. If I want my thesis to be good I’ll have to do good research. I guess I’ll just have to work really hard and push myself beyond what I think I can do. IF I do that, I will be fine, but I’m just hoping that I have the will for it.

But all anxieties aside, today I’m going to go shopping for some killer internship outfits, have lunch with my dad, and plan our Memorial Day meal. That should keep my mind off my hopefully-not-impending doom.

A dopo!

Well hey there Dallas!

So, I’m at the Dallas-Fort Worth airport finally. Well, actually I’ve been here for a couple hours, but it’s taken a while for it to sink in that I will be home in just a few hours. I can’t wait to see my house since my mother has been renovating, I can’t wait to see my family, and my city.

I had McDonald’s when I got here, which was an extremely poor decision on my behalf and now I feel like there is a ball of congealed lard in the pit of my stomach. Disturbingly enough, I’m not too sure that’s far from the truth.

There are very few times when I have been this excited to go home and since I haven’t been back since January it seems like it’s been forever. I’m hoping to make it home for happy hour, I miss getting good drinks. Bars in the Springs are pretty cheap, but they definitely aren’t good. Not at all.

For now, I’m sitting in the airport excited and ready to get on the plane.

A dopo!

Weather, meh (5/21)

Well, my plans to go home were thwarted. It is 5PM, and instead of finding myself in the Dallas-Fort Worth Airport eagerly awaiting my arrival home, I am back at my friends place planning on bunking on the couch for a 3rd night. Woohoo!

There are many reasons for this to suck hard, the most important of which is the fact that I really wanted to go home. I got so excited and then my flight got cancelled. It’s not like I don’t love it here, but most of my friends are gone at the this point and I have so much to look forward to at home. There is nothing that I want more right now than to be on a plane on its way to Cleveland. Hopefully I’ll get a good dinner and maybe have a few drinks. Otherwise, I’ll be not-so-patiently waiting for my flight out of here and to see my family finally!

A dopo!

Summertime!

This morning I got up at 6AM to get ready for commencement, it was bittersweet because on one hand I’m extremely excited for my friends who are seniors. They are leaving CC to do amazing inspiring things and I know that their lives outside of school will be so fulfilling. But, I am sad to see them go, there are so many great people in that year and I will miss them so much.

I ended out the year pretty well, I got the internship that I wanted at Legal Aid Society of Cleveland and I am doing my thesis work with Near West Recreation so things seem to be going well.

I can’t really make much sense of what’s going on right now. It all seems like a blur of events and emotions. Hopefully wants I get home and have some literal and figurative distance from everything—school, friends, clubs, Colorado—and I’ll be able to get things together in my head. Until then I think I’m going to watch some Game of Thrones.

A dopo!